And now, entering into the final month of summer, I am faced with the morality of youth. A bit melodramatic, but it fits in my completely biased opinion. I have 13 days until I will no longer be a lifeguard at Valley View pool! A job, I've both loved and hated. A job that has taken me through high school and the majority of college. I never realized quite how much the job meant to me until I was faced with leaving it.
I have spent this summer with my mom and sister when I'm off the clock and at work and with my coworkers when on the clock. I have two homes. Two families. It's strange, most of my friends from high school have moved away, note the best friend I mentioned early, and so my last lifeline to the life I used to lead when I was in high school, is this pool. Next summer, I have to get an internship and the summer after that I'll be a college graduate and looking for a job. Much like graduating high school, I never thought this day would come. Not as if I didn't think I'd have the grades to graduate, but rather I never imagined past high school in a real sort of way, but rather in the abstract, so when that graduation day finally came it took me by surprise. This finale, the summer before "shit gets real", pardon my French, is another abstract that I never quite saw coming. Yes, I often daydream of the future, where I have my dream career and a family, but to get there, I never really thought of the fact that the things I have now, wouldn't still be a part of my life.
This summer, I've had to come to terms with the fact that people I always thought would be in my life aren't anymore, and there's no bitterness with that realization, our friendships didn't implode or explode, we just grew apart. Life took us in different directions, it's crazy how that tends to happen. I suppose that's what growing up is all about. I've really grown up since the summer before my high school senior year, instead of holding on with a ferocity to have things not change, I've learned to accept that things are going to change regardless of what you want. So it's best to just go with it.
There's 13 days until I'm done working at the pool. There's 22 until I have to go back to school and say goodbye to Summer 2013, and 26 until I start my senior year of college. I'm sure there a lot more to experience before I close this chapter. I even have a tattoo to get! And I can't wait to see what God has in store for me!
xxoo
Jordan
