Christmas Break!










Happy 1 Year!

Well it's a few days late, pardon me, but happy one year blog! It's amazing what all can happen in a year! Truly, the people that come and go in your life. The decisions you make and the outcomes. I can honestly say that I am 100% happier this time around writing this post compared to my first post! This school year has to be the best year I've had in school so far! It makes me think of high school. I finally am surrounded by people that love and support me. I have my family, friends, and sisters. I'm excited about the future and everything that is to come and what could come! Jade & I started thinking about possibly writing a tv series and I would get to be the costume designer! I know now that anything I want to happen and can dream, I can definitely achieve! 2012, was a year of many ups and downs, but I feel as if everything was a necessary evil, God didn't give me anything I couldn't handle and I'm so excited to see what he'll throw at me in 2013!

xoxo
Jordan

12/12/12

I know that you've probably heard all about this is the last repeating date we'll ever see in our lifetimes, I actually told my little sister that and she countered with "in our human lifetimes"... HA! Anywhoo, I think it's just too cool a date not to talk about... Think about it, living in the first part of this century we got to see 01/01/01 all the way to 12/12/12. Yeah, sure everyone living now can say that, but really who else? I makes me think of the people who lived at the beginning of every century. I'm sure in 1512, no one cared that today was 12/12/12, but they lived it too! And to think we have something in common with those people is just so cool.

I wish that from the time I was 9 until now at 20, 11 years, I would've taken some sort of picture to commemorate this day. Or rather these days. I wonder what will be different in 2112, I'm sure so much and yet I can't imagine that time ever coming, and yet it will. Because as you grow up, time just keeps moving faster and faster!

12:12, Make a Wish!
Mine? Make Today Worth Remembering!
xoxo
Jordan 


Finding Joe: The Hero's Journey

I honestly love learning. If it's a subject that truly teaches me something and then I want it in every facet of my life. I tell everyone about it and I continue to look into it long after the class is over. In college, that has probably happened three times. Freshman year with my English Comp 1 & 2! Last semester with Humanities and now this semester with Mythology of Ancient Greece! I think because I've always loved History and English. I think it helped also when I had teachers that were truly inspiring, they loved what they taught, and because of them you loved it too.

 This semester, in Myth, we watched a film, Finding Joe: The Hero's Journey, it was during our Hero section of the class so it really came as no surprise. However, the film had a strange effect on me. The entire time I watched it I had an overwhelming want to cry, I'm not sure why but I did. And it made me want to know my purpose in life and to go after it with everything I've got.


After watching the film in class, we were given an assignment, to talk about an event in our lives and then run it through the Hero's Journey. Here's mine:


My hero’s journey was my journey to finding and defining my idea of faith.
1.       The Call:
The summer before I was a sophomore in high school, my grandpa died. I was extremely close to him, and losing someone so close to me lead me on a really dark, and faithless path for three years.
2.       Fear:
After his death, everything I thought I knew was questioned. Not just faith but religion, because these had always been really important in my household. The biggest fear was not knowing what was going on, where to look to, and what to expect. Why would a just God doing something as damaging as allowing something like this happen when it was so unexpected. I was really angry and depressed and that scared me, because they were emotions I had never truly felt before.
3.       Road of Trials:
I had always been an active member of my church youth group and other activities along those lines and I went to church every Sunday. I started to pull out of the group and I stopped going to church regularly. I was pushed and pulled in every direction when it came to all things religious.
4.       Apotheosis:
My senior year of high school, my AP English teacher gave a prompt in which he asked us to write about a time in which we were greatly affected and to lead us up to the event and tell us everything about it, I chose to write about the death of my grandpa. Until that point, I had never really addressed the effect that my grandpa’s death had had on me. I surprised even myself with this realization.
5.       Battling of Dragon(s):
I think that there were probably quite a few dragons, every time I fought with my mom over a church function, or every time I fought with myself over what I was feeling but the biggest dragon was when I decided that I wanted to get a tattoo, which was for my grandpa. I begged my mom off and on for two years; she finally agreed that I could when I was 18. After that concession, I begged for her to get it with me. After some prodding, a few months after I turned 18, she finally agreed. So on June 16th, 2010, 4 years later on the anniversary of his death, my mom and I got our matching tattoos in honor of my grandpa on our wrists.
6.       The Return:
The tattoo was the last step after a long, sad journey back to my faith. This allowed me to give my grief a face and it allowed me to accept it finally, and start to move on. I have a constant reminder of our bond and I constantly get to answer questions about it, I think that’s my grandpa’s way of saying he’s still watching. I now have a renewed faith, it is stronger and different than before. Before I believed in God because I thought I had to, it was the way I was raised, after those years I now realized that my faith is entirely my own and it is what I make of it, it is no one else’s and no else needs to understand it, it’s my own personal relationship with God.


There's just something so cathartic about writing!
xoxo
Jordan 


Christmas!

7th Heaven could quite honestly be one of my favorite shows, like One Tree Hill, it taught me a lot about myself and others. It will always have a special place in my heart. My favorite episode of the entire series is probably the "Christmas!" episode. Originally aired December 10, 2006.
Eric was looking forward to possibly his last Christmas with the whole Camden clan, but wakes up a few days earlier in heaven as a rather Glenoaks-like town, welcomed by his loving mother-in-law and deceased people who appreciate the efforts he spent on them and their loved ones, and now worry about the mortals still on earth, including the Camden family which is preparing for Christmas, even Kevin and Lucy are back early from Frisco. While in heaven Eric is offered miraculous packed gifts for his family, all things he generously gave his parishioners, such as time for Matt and Mary to spend on their families and erasers for memories which poison relationships, his family decides to expand the day they spend on charity -like every year- to three: one because it feels good, one as Eric's favorite present and one for the infant Jesus.
This episode without fail can make me cry, which if you know me isn't all that difficult, but it is just so touching. It makes me realize how much I want my life to touch and mean something to others. I want for when my final days come to know that the world is a better place when I was here. I'm not sure how I can guarantee this to happen, but I know that I try my best to live each day with this in mind. It's something to keep in mind while spending my days preparing for finals, working, and spending Christmas at home! Merry Christmas! Make a difference! xoxo

Finally, Finals are Here!







Sorry for the long absence. This semester seemed to be never ending! It is seriously probably one of my hardest and yet my most rewarding! And I can't wait to tell you all about it... But back to studying! xoxo

Formal Recruitment

Feels Like Home to Me!












To Gain Understanding That Wisdom May Be Vouchsafed To Me.
To Develop and Prize Health And Vigor Of Body.
To Cultivate Acquaintance With Many Whom I Meet.
To Cherish Friendships With But A Chosen Few And To Study The Perfecting Of Those Friendships.
To Welcome The Opportunity Of Contributing To The World's Work In The Community Where I Am Placed Because Of The Joy Of Service Thereby Bestowed And The Talent Of Leadership Multipled.
To Honor My Home, My Country, My Religious Faith.
To Hold Truth Inviolable, Sincerity Esstential, Kindness Invaluable.
To Covet Beauty In Environment, Manner, Word And Thought.
To Possess High Ideals And To Attain Somewhat Onto Them.
This Shall Be My Purpose, That Those Who Know Me May Esteem Alpha Gamma Delta For Her Attainments, Revere Her For Her Purposes And Love Her For Her Womanhood.

If you're not in a sorority, it's hard to describe the feeling that sisterhood brings. You may know it if you're a part of a big family. There's always someone there that makes your day a hundred times brighter. Someone always there to make your life so much better than what it was before you met them. I found that with Alpha Gamma Delta. The words of the purpose moved me, they still do! If you take your time to actually read them and let them soak in and really think about what is being said, and when I did that, I found a place that I wanted to call home. I realized that those words embodied exactly how I try to live my life. And these women made me want to be better.

The saying goes, "these letters don't make me better than you, they make me better than who I used to be." And I really believe that. Alpha Gamma Delta redefined my life purpose and it brought amazing women into my life that I will call family for the rest of my life!

Inspire the Woman. Impact the World.
xoxo
Jordan

Weekends

For the past three weekends, I have been moving at hyper speed! The first one, I went home for the fair and to see my best friends that I hadn't seen since we all left for school.
It was a quick trip! Only home for a day! But it was a fun trip. I got to spend time with my best friends catch up on everything that happened since we had last met. That Sunday was the godspeed service for my pastor. She's been my pastor for the past few years, she's helped me through a few crisises and taught me great moves in my faith. And it was hard accept this new change in my life. But God doesn't ever give you something you can't handle.
Then the weekend of the 13th afterwards, I went home so that mom, Jade and I could go to our first Big Ten football game! Ohio State University versus Indiana University at Bloomington! Two of my favorite universities and teams! It was quite the event!



After watching IU hold off OSU for a good portion of the game, for OSU to pull it out in the end, we spent the next day driving around campus! What a beautiful place! The perfect collegiate background! We even got to visit my sorority house there!



This weekend, I went to my best friend's sorority date party. Ya know, no big thing, just their Mallard Ball. It was an event for our entire Panhell Family! My big aka mom, her sister aka dad, her and myself!
 
Then today, my sorority put on a philathropy event, Octoberfest! It was perfect a wonderful fall day! With wonderful fall events! Pumpkin carving, cornhole, bobbing for apples, three legged race, potatoe sack races! And you can't forget the food!!! Corn on the cob! Caramel apples! and nommy cookies! And hot cocoa and hot apple cider! Oh and of course pictures!
 









College Weekends!
What a beautiful thing!
xoxo
jordan

Feels Like Home To Me...

This past week, was Formal Recruitment! It was truly a sight to behold! A campus full of sorority women and potential new members running around campus to classes, work, and stressing over the future! But of course, the stress was for nothing, we got a great group of women and the stress can move back to homework and projects and the semester ahead.

Weeks like these are my favorite! A week full of sisterhood! Spending time with my sisters, is always what the doctor ordered! Last week, was no different. The theme this year was "Home" or rather, Finding a Home in Alpha Gamma Delta. And what I realized, come the end of the week, last year I made the best decision of my life! And I did find my home. I feel like since joining last September, not only have I made great friends, but I've grown up. I'm so glad to not only be able to call these women friends, my best friends at that, but sisters as well! And I'm immensely more happy than I have been since graduating college. I thank God, for that!

The reasons women join sororities are plentiful. The reason I joined Alpha Gamma Delta, is that I wanted a home away from home and people I could count on. I was looking for the type of friendships you make growing up, the ones you leave behind in high school when you all separate for college. My sisters make me feel comfortable with being myself. I never feel alone or strange. They are always around and there for me when I need them. I've become not only a better, more responsible woman, but person. I'm depended on and it's something everyone should experience. It's hard to explain, but I'm immensely greatful!



Inspire the Woman, Impact the World
xoxo
Jordan

College Football Saturday

Growing up, it was a given, that come Saturday morning, college football would be on the tv all day long! Big Ten was a given, and then whatever other games that were on. It became such a normal thing, something my sister and I would complain about. But we would sit there and do homework and just spend the day together.

Fastforward to my freshman year of college, 2010, and I was faced with a missing feeling... One day, I realized that it was College Football Saturday. Something I had taken for granted, that warm, fall feeling of being a part of something and cheering on your team! Cause honestly, it's completely unrealistic that a person could grow up in Southeast Ohio, and not to be a Buckeye fan! Not to mention a Big Ten fan! In Akron, people don't really care about football, like its there, don't get me wrong, but it's by no means an overwhelming feeling. Something you feel, come every Saturday. Something you look forward to, a way of feeling at home, while being miles away!

In two weeks, my mom, sister and I are all going to Bloomington, IN. We will be getting to one of the very things I've always wanted to do! We are going to an OSU football game! And to state the obvious, an Indiana football game! Two of my favorite Big Ten schools, are playing each other in one of the prettiest places I've ever been! And I couldn't be more excited! Not only am I crossing something off my College To-Do List (Go to a Big Ten football game!) but also I'm going to experience that family sensation in the flesh, with my family!

 
Go Hoosiers!
Go Bucks!
Happy Football Saturday!
xoxo
Jordan 

College Boredom

If you haven't seen PSY's Gangnam Style, you are missing out! Make sure you watch. My roommate is obsessed with it, and so we decided to make a video! Hope you enjoy watching it, as much as we enjoyed making it!

Here's PSY's:

EH SEXY LADIES!
xoxo
Jordan

September Issue

So with the weather changing, and the September Issues of fashion magazines still on display, not to mention Joan Rivers' Fashion Police and Fashion Week coming near, my thoughts are completely consumed by the perfect fall wardrobe!
In my opinion:
Colors:
Neutrals: think Browns, Tans, Cream
White
Black
Mint
Neon
 
Shoes:
Boots
Flats
Sperrys
 
Leather jackets, Peplum shirts, skirts and dresses. Chambray. Leopard prints. I'm all about print pants! Not to mention, printed pants! Tons of scarves! Big oversized cable knit sweaters, blazers, and asymmetrical button ups. And of course bows! And I can't forget to mention lace!
 

















 
Fall has Fallen!
xoxo
Jordan


Flashback Fashion Friday: January 2021

January 2021 was honestly a continuation of 2020... it was such a long ass month. At the end of the month, there was a power outage that las...