The dread continued to grow and grow -- ruining almost my entire time in Lancaster. By the time I was in Akron, I was miserable until I realized that I had a rental car and some extra time built into my schedule ... so even though I had a perfectly good plane ticket at the end of the week. My terrible anxiety over the first leg of the trip would NOT allow me to get on that plane. So instead, Thomas and I left a day earlier and drove the three days back to California. It was highly worth it. My bank account regretted it immediately but I was so happy to not deal with another jerk on an airplane.
Fast forward to me doing nothing much but homework and hanging with Thomas and not even realizing how unhappy I was until today when I realized that I was having a with doing basically everything. So to make up for my new energy- I'm doing 100 squats a day for all 31 days of Halloween and I am going to go to the gym everyday as well (to make up for the fact that even though I was paying- I didn't use my gym membership for two months!).
So it's October and I'm back on my booshit ;)
xo,
KJB