Girl Meets World

One of my all time favorite shows growing up was Boy Meets World. Each episode of Boy Meets World came with a message, much like my other favorites: 7th Heaven and One Tree Hill.

This is why when I decided to start my blog I wanted to name it Girl Meets World.

This past year, The Matthews returned to the tv screen, in the form of Cory & Topanga, with 2 children in toe and I've never been happier! Honestly, I probably get more excited about new episodes than their intended audience. If you can watch the show, and not laugh the entire half hour and then cry at the end because of the lesson learned, I don't trust you-- because clearly you're way too level-headed for me.

When I was 18, I decided that I would get these two tattoos when I graduated college, alis volat propriis and alis grave nil, and that has come to pass. At 16, I thought that by 23 I would be engaged. I've learned that giving yourself arbitrary goals really only leaves you disappointed.

A year ago, I had thought of changing the name of my blog. Thinking that I would have enough of a grasp on life after college, to believe that I could transfer my attention. But honestly- I'm not done growing up. And I know I'm not done learning, that much I do know.

So updates to the design are pending... bare with me.

But the name stays.

xxoo

KJB

KJB's Post Grad Life

The saying goes nothing will ruin your 20s more than thinking you should have your life together.

And ain't that the truth!

I'm not sure what I'm doing, and there's something exciting about that.

After 12 years of primary/secondary education and 4 1/2 years of post-secondary education, I'm now at this point in my life where I get to decide whatever direction I want to go.

Since leaving my college town and moving home, I've really enjoyed my change of pace while I wait to hear back on my dream job. I'm catching up on shows, that I stopped watching because graduation was more important and bonding with my puppy brother.

Yesterday, I became really sad about the fact that all my school friends are together and all my home friends have moved away, then I calmed down and realized that this is the time for me to learn how to do things alone. 

So I'm gonna start looking for more jobs and apply for season two of House of DVF. Also- while I'm gainfully, unemployed-- I'm gonna use it to my benefit and visit my friends when I can- because one day I won't have the time and I'll look back at this time fondly. There's nothing like having time to do whatever you want to do.

But I can feel change is coming...

"The scariest moment is always just before you start." - Stephen King

xoxo

KJB

New Romantics

"I could build castles with all the bricks they threw at me."

I'm sure other artists get it-- but the commonality of all Taylor Swift fans is the fact that she sings about our lives when she sings about her own.

Like I don't know about any of you- but I know that the chances of my dating Harry Styles and Jake Gyllenhaal are slim to none- but because of Queen Swifty, herself, I can sing along as if I did.

So when I turned 22 I knew I had a song waiting for me. Much to the chagrin of my roommate at the time I listened 22 on loop my birthday this past year. And what I feel like everyday since it has played once or at least been quoted. So when faced with getting a year older- I was concerned. I love my birthday, ask anyone, and yet when faced with turning 23, I was concerned... Cause originally there were only two songs, Blink-182's What's My Age Again? 

"Nobody likes you when you're twenty three..."

And then Miley Cyrus and Mike Will came out with 23, but besides Michael Jordan's Bull's jersey-- there's no part of that situation I wanted to be a part of...

So I was left in between a rock and a hard place.

So while I was preparing my present for my best friend, I was looking for the perfect song and I found it... Taylor Swift's New Romantics. You're welcome. 

I believe I have found yet another accurate song Taylor Swift song to be the soundtrack of my life.

We're all bored, we're all so tired of everything
We wait for trains that just aren't coming
We show off our different scarlet letters
Trust me, mine is better

We're so young but we're on the road to ruin
We play dumb but we know exactly what we're doing
We cry tears of mascara in the bathroom
Honey, life is just a classroom

'Cause, baby, I could build a castle
Out of all the bricks they threw at me
And every day is like a battle
But every night with us is like a dream

Baby, we're the new romantics
Come on, come along with me
Heart break is the national anthem
We sing it proudly
We are too busy dancing
To get knocked off our feet
Baby, we're the new romantics
The best people in life are free

So ya know-- thanks for that T. Swift.

xoxo

KJB

Happy New Year, Happy KJB

"2015 will be a selfish year. My time and focus will be invested on me. On improving myself. I want to become a better person physically and mentally. I want to let go of my fears and learn to love myself."

I find the greatest things on Tumblr. And so- maybe selfish isn't right. But I know that everything in my life and everything that happened in 2014- happened for a reason and I'm a better person for it.

2014 Accomplishments:

*I accepted the body I'm in

*I accepted the ghosts of my past and let things go

*I accepted I am enough & didn't chase after anyone that made me feel otherwise

*I learned to enjoy where I am in life

*I learned and accepted you don't always get what you want and that's sometimes a blessing in disguise

*I fully enjoyed my last 2 semesters of college

*I have and made great (forever) friends

The saying goes some people are supposed to be around your whole life and others are supposed to only make an appearance. Sometimes that's a blessing in disguise. I love all of my current friends because I know that they want to be here, in my life. I've learned- stay away from people that make you feel less than or that you're hard to love. If someone wants to be in your life they'll make it happen. It might sound like I'm quoting Justin Long from He's Just Not That Into You-- it's because essentially I am.

For example: There was this boy- nothing ever happened, turned out it was a relationship friendship entirely in my head- which made it ridiculous and exhausting. Until I realized- this year, well 2014- that if he didn't want to be in my life, why did I want him there? So I unfriended, unfollowed, etc- I stopped checking up on him and I've never been happier. You don't always control what happens to you in your life, but you always get to decide how you're going to react to it.

I am a genuinely happier person now than I have any previous recollection of. I haven't won the lottery or lost a significant amount of weight but I am genuinely happy. I have fabulous friends and family and I have my college degree (admittingly- I'm still waiting for its arrival). I can say without sadness or remorse that my childhood is over, maybe- probably it has been for awhile, but commencement and the closing of 2014, really cemented it in my mind.

Today, mom & Jade went back to school. Next week, my friends go back to college and here I am, about to start the rest of my life. Maybe that's cliche, but I'm about to start my path towards, the future, and isn't that exciting? I think this year is where I learn to walk alone. Not be lonely, but rather- this path is entirely my own. Up until this point, I've gone to school and worked towards this point, and now it's finally here. I've applied for my dream job with my sorority and if I get to continue the process I have a few months ahead of me before I'll know the final outcome and if it's not meant to be, I'll start applying for jobs near and far that apply to my career path. God has a plan. In the devotional, we have had since at least 6th grade, on January 1st- Max Lucado said, "God had packed you on purpose for a purpose." I know that whatever I'm moved to do in life- be a buyer, like I went to school for; be a costume designer, like I've always wanted; or something I haven't even thought of yet- God has and will provide.

I feel like 2014- was truly my year, and that I found myself. So I can only imagine how 2015 is going to outdo itself.

My only goals for 2015: continue to be happy and enjoy the journey 

xoxo 

KJB