Goodnight Tree Hill

Yes! I am actually about to write about One Tree Hill...

Later on in life, when someone asks me where I learned

the greatest life lessons, I will simply reply,

my mother, my best friends and One Tree Hill.

One Tree Hill has been on the air since 2003.

This show first aired when I was in the 6th grade.

I've seen every episode.

Something to know about me, is when I commit to something, I really commit.

By that I mean, I honestly love this show, and the characters.

When something happens to them, I feel as if it's happening to people

I know.

The best part about this show, is that it always has a lesson.

Which I feel like is really different than other shows.

This show truly helped me through some of the hardest

times in my life.

I experienced loss, love, forgiveness, redemption, death for the first time

with this show.

And with it ending this year, I realize that,

especially by the fact that thinking of it no longer being around makes me cry.



This show taught me of the healing powers of music.

I was always someone that never believed in second chances.

Someone who believed that people not just didn't

change, but couldn't change.

With this show, I realized that wasn't necessarily the case.

"Forgiveness is never easy. Bitterness is easy. Hatred is easy. But forgiveness,

that is a tough one. Sometimes people say things they don't mean or do things they can't take

back. Sometimes we do things we can't take back. We're all

afraid of something."

--Dan Scott

"Unburden yourself from the mistakes of the past. And when you do, your heart grows stronger."

-- Dan Scott

When I was younger, and would watch this, and just cry and cry

when things happened to the characters, my mom would always

threaten to take away my tv.

Which I guess is ironic, cause I would never cry like that in real life,

at least that's what I thought until my grandpa died.

What I never realized until I was out of my funk,

One Tree Hill was there for me, when I needed it most.

It was an escape, and it was a venue that

taught me that I wasn't alone when I felt so very alone.

Some people may not get how important One Tree Hill is.

But my question is for them... how did you know that you weren't alone?

Did you just know that others went through the same bull?

Or did you feel alone, and sad and scared?

How often is it that you can find the perfect episode and occasion,

and it fit perfectly with what you were going through.

This show has fully supported me in all aspects of life.

And when it's gone, a part of my heart goes with it.

It's so rare that you find something that makes you fully happy with no setbacks.

I fully plan on own the whole series someday, and when my kids are old enough,

we'll watch it as a family. Because if it helped me, it will definitely help them.

So I just want to thank One Tree Hill,

for everything they've given me.

xoxo,

Jordan

Turning a New Leaf

So naturally being a girl comes along with a lot of

trash talking.

It's just something we all seem to do.

& I'm definitely guilty.

It's not a good look on anyone.

& it's really ugly, & brings down your

own energy...

I know that it's exhausting always being

pissed off.

Life is just so much easier and breezier if

you're not concerned with other's misdoings...

So I've decided to turn a new leaf,

I'm not going to concern myself with anything

that doesn't effect myself directly.

Not saying that I won't moan and complain occasionally,

let's be honest, it'll happen a lot.

But it will no longer be coloring my feelings & reactions.

Life is too precious & short to waste

anymore time being angry & bitter.

& if that isn't possible, stay away from that person.

I guess I'm saying....

GIVE PEACE A CHANCE.

Spread the love,

xoxo

Jordan

We'll Meet Again One Day

The first book I read this semester was

The Epic of Gilgamesh.

Where a man was forced to face his own mortality,

not just others.

A girl at my high school died over

winter break, I didn't know her.

But I know that she was loved.

And I know that others will miss her until they

see her again one day.

My grandpa died the summer before sophomore year.

That year was a hard year,

my best friend at the time's grandpa  

died  and then her uncle

the latter part of the year.

And then my grandpa died, then her

grandma, and then my dog died.

If it hadn't happened to me,

I would've thought it was a bad country song.

So now when other people lose loved one's

I understand completely how they feel.

I understand the anger and the confusion.

I still feel hurt and dismay.

But it helps to write it down and get my thoughts

and feelings out.

I never talked about it until the spring of my senior year.

And then again for a part I had to write in my

English Composition 1 class.

And it was extremely hard to finally come to terms with my feelings.

I could joke about it or cry about it.

But it wasn't until last year when I realized that I had

never really accepted it.

I grew up in a Christian household.

We went to church.

We went to Sunday School.

I learned about God, Jesus & the Holy Spirit.

I learned all of the principles that my mom and our church

felt important.

And intellectually I understood that my grandpa was old,

as was my best friend's grandma, her grandpa, and great uncle.

And my dog was sick.

But I think it had a lot to do with maybe it literally

all happening faster than a year.

But for the first time I lost my faith in God.

And until last year, I didn't even know how good

having faith felt.

Believing and knowing that everything will work out

if half of the battle.

I'm so happy that I was able to make it through those 2 1/2 years,

because without them, I don't

think I'd be the same person.

So I pray for anyone going through a hard time.

It will get better.

You will make it through this.

You're stronger than you even know.

Just believe that.

Never take anything for granted.

And have faith!

xoxo,

Jordan

Birthdays

Birthdays are extremely important in my book!

They come around once a year.

And the day you were BORN!

That's important!

& if you're not gonna think of it like that who is?!

My birthday, February 13th, 1992.

Is my favorite day!

Only surpassed by Christmas because of Jesus' birthday,

and all of the holiday cheer!

Being I think my birthday is so great!

I try and make everyone else's great too!

So from the moment the birthday begins to the moment it ends,

you'll know that I think you're pretty fantastic!

Cause sometimes others don't make birthdays a big deal,

and I think they're quite the opposite.

I celebrate my birthday for a month! Sometimes longer!

I beginning celebrating the day after my mom's.

So from January 13th to February 20th, and

honestly sometimes until March, I'll say it's my birthday!

In my defense February is a very short month!

I think it started, because my mom would always allow

my sister and I to take whatever day off we wanted

for our birthdays, usually our actual birthday

or the Friday nearest.

Then we would do whatever the birthday girl

wanted!

Mine always seemed to be shopping, sometimes a movie, and lunch!

It was always so much fun to be one on one with mom!

Sweet 16

As I got older I stopped taking the day off and instead it just became a

birthday dinner at my grandparent's house.

And then when my grandpa died,

and my grandma started going South for the winter,

it would just be mom, Jade and I.

And then when I started college, the first time

I wouldn't be celebrating my birthday with my family,

that's where the Birthday Extravangaza probably started!

And it was probably a lot to make up for celebrating my birthday

without anyone I really knew.

And because I sometimes think that

other people may be sad to be away from their families,

19th Birthday

I like to make them preoccupied by

"the happy birthday palooza"...

Either way, I love birthdays!
And I enjoy making others' birthdays fun!

Happy Birthday!!!!
xoxo,
Jordan

First Day of School

First Day of School was today...

But I'll get to that.

My pastor sends out a bible verse every Sunday,

for us to reflect on throughout the week,

and then we reply to her, and then we'll email back and forth.

So this week's came from Psalm 29:11:

"The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace."

This is what I read before my day started today,

and it was really eye opening.

After reading it through a few times, and

after fully comprehending it, I realized what I was reading.

I hearing,

"HAVE FAITH."

After that the day, was quite easy actually.

I'm not saying I didnt complain, but

I knew that the day wouldn't be anything I couldn't handle.

And I had my comfort zone with me along the way,

I had class with 3 of sisters!

And it was truly great getting to see so many of them around campus

throughout the day, and I really can't wait to see what this semester has to give.

Cause God doesn't give anything that you can't handle.

Just have to have a little faith!

xoxo,

Jordan



Asher Roth Was WRONG!

So this past week, was oh so bittersweet!

It was the end of Winter Break!

Yes, obviously I'm the typical college student,

& I needed a break!

But the main reason it was so sad,

for it to be over, because uncharacteristicly

in very uncollegiate fashion, I hate leaving home.

So of course this week, was full of emotions.

However, when I finally packed, my anxiety

subsided.

Now even, having unpacked, life is a lot better.

And yet, I'm still really upset about not being with my family.

My mom and sister are my best friends.

So it's hard being so far away.

Not to mention having all of my friends together

in one place.

College, sometimes really messes up relationships.

Even though, Winter Break is ending.

& spring semester starting...

The summer will be much more fun!

& 3 months, rather than 3 1/2 weeks!

Wish me luck on the pending semester!

I'm gonna need it!

xoxo,

Jordan

Adventures in Living

When it comes to the future, I find myself in an anxiety tailspin, most days. This past semester, one of my classes was taught by a teacher who used to work in my dream job, a buyer for a department stores. She told the class at the end of the semester, the hard truth, it would be hard to have a family and do this job. Which made me really question what I want. Because the only thing I want more than to be a buyer, is to have my own family. So I've come to realize, that I must choose. I know that at some point there will come a fork in the road:

1) Marriage, Kids, Family

2) Career, Adventure, Fun

There's no need for me to decide this now. I can't possibly, I'm only 19. Besides, I still have college to finish, not to mention figure out what I wholeheartedly want. Though I do know that I would rather have my own store than be an underling for the rest of my life.

 

The other day actually, I was told that I should look into being involved in the media. It makes perfect sense, because I often find myself crying while watching movies, or television shows, and definitely while reading a book. So with the idea of being involved with the media, I've started thinking about costuming like Patricia Field with Sex and the City. Not to mention Gossip Girl's Eric Daman. Being a costume designer would be a great job! And without a doubt, I would love every minute of it! Not to mention getting to live and visit multiple different locations:

• Manhattan
• Atlamta
• Chicago
• LA
• San Francisco
• Seattle
• Portland
• Paris
• London
• Charlotte
• Savannah
• New Orleans

Not to mention, I would love to get married by 2018. There will be many adventures to be had.



xoxo,

Jordan

Happy New Year!

2012 (It Ain't The End)- Jay Sean ft Nicki Minaj

"What's the one thing you would do if you know you couldn't fail?

... Now go out and do it."

BELIEVE!

That's the word of 2012!

If you can dream it, you can achieve it.

And this year I'm reaching for the stars!

"People will choose to blame their circumstances on fate or bad luck.

Very few will admit it's mainly the choices they have made."

This year, I plan on fully committing to my future career path.

And hopefully some serious follow through with my resolutions.

My friend and I talked about how great it would be to meet someone in September

that is still working on their Resolutions, and this year

that's my goal. I want to spend my 2012,

working on bettering myself and others.

"When things aren't working out as you wish,

be patient. Stop trying to move ahead of God.

His timing is perfect.Trust him."

"Failures are just God's way of saying:

'Never give up, be patient, work hard & have faith.'"

Fall semester, I realized how much God has helped me.

This past semester, or as I like to call it, The Semester From Hell,

was so difficult. But my mom brought it back into perspective.

And told me to trust God.

And when that finally sunk in, I felt so much better.

So this semester, I'm starting off with that thought process.

"I can do all things through him."

And so that's what I'm gonna do.

"We should all start to live before we get too old. 

Fear is stupid. So are regrets." 

 Happy New Year!

May your 2012 be blessed!

xoxo,

Jordan